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MY PERSONAL JOURNAL

Insomniac –

I lay in my mothers mansion-like bedroom, in a king sized, 70s fitted bed. So many bizarre sounds which can be heard of, an open bathroom to my right with different shades of lighting hitting different angles, leaving a dark tone to the setting. There can be seen a flashing light bulb just outside the door from the bedroom which was slightly open. Unfamiliar patterns, objects all over the room, which horrifies the brain. The TV flashing its brand name, vividly extracting more light around. Lastly, the heat of the room leaves me more restless. All of these things created such a dark horrifying tone and kept me restless, unable to sleep, so I finally got up and wandered to my own room, where everything is familiar, minuscule and quiet. The lighting is of consistent shading leaving no ill thoughts to the mind. I can finally rest peacefully at last.

Benzo Walk –

After consuming 2 xans from the day before, I was still in a state of abliss, in fact I had felt it hit harder in my system the next day. I thought I’d take a nice walk and listen to music. Beautiful colours all around and lots of butterflies flying by. Normally when I see a stranger pass me I have unwanted thoughts such as the fact they are ruining my beautiful walk by inducing Awkward anxiety. But none of these thoughts were present today and I looked this stranger straight in the eyes as I walked past him, no anxiety, no fear. His presence was irrelevant to my state of mind. As I’m walking I see a stupid politician sign promoting himself so I kick it to the ground. Beside me are cars going at such velocity it makes the hairs on my body lift. What if I just walked straight in front of the car, they wouldn’t have a chance to stop. My body slammed into the ground. My intestines bleeding from the inside awaiting the fate of death. Is this what it feels like to be normal I wonder.

MODERN APATHY

“Let people do what they want as long as it doesn’t affect you”

The belief of letting everyone do what they want as long as it doesn’t affect others is a very mainstream belief in western civilisation, which has led to the normalisation of many degenerate behaviours. I believe it’s absolutely necessary to guide individuals down the correct path for the long term health of the population.

The hedonistic apathy of many people during our modern period is very contradictory in itself because letting anyone do what they want will affect someone sooner or later. Society is comprised of individuals and every action of an individual contributes to the fabric of society. Those that claim otherwise are simply refusing to look at the big picture to instead blindly chase after misdirected ideas of liberty.

If one citizen is a porn addicted consumer and says “I’m in my room how is this affecting anyone else”, he can spread his degenerate ideas around to other citizens like a plague destroying our societies moral code. Our libertine ideas have been the downfall of our society and it takes strong men and women to unlock themselves from the hedonistic entitled arrogant programming.

If a citizen is unhealthy and uneducated, he might commit an atrocity against fellow citizens causing harm. We should have authority enforcing laws against such behaviors to keep citizens protected from falling into an unhealthy state. If we let our citizens destroy themselves, then we have failed as a society at becoming strong. The strong will protect the weak as they have in pre historic eras. There is a strong lack of empathy and compassion among one another that is disturbing to see and driven from such desensitization through typically online.

The effects of moral apathy have been widespread. Our ideas of sex has been corrupted by letting subversive elements run through every institution with no resistance. We went thousands of years with normal ideas of sex without having to tell women they don’t need to be strangled to death in order to enjoy it and yet thanks to porn we have this absurd ideas that destroy us. Porn that people claim merely effects the individual and not society at large- a ridiculous claim. A perfect example would be Only Fans, it is very normalized for the most part and thus lots of young women are creating an Only Fans and they suffer little consequences for it. It affects society as a whole despite supposedly just being a transaction between two people, it is causing a lot of men to act on lust hunger destroying their ability to love a woman without having to see her as nothing but a sexual object. This also affects how women see themselves and women having healthy relationships. Who would of thought a talentless woman could make $10k a month while men are getting paid not even half that while risking their lives.

We need to take action against this hedonistic apathy for our society to become clean. In the end doing what you want will always impact someone around you. Protect and guide the weak in your community.

THE CONSEQUENCES OF PORNOGRAPHY

The main question a lot of you want to know is WHY and HOW porn is bad? To come to this conclusion we must start off with the history of pornography.

Pornography noun 1. Printed or visual material containing the explicit description of sexual organs or activity, intended to stimulate sexual excitement.

The word pornography, derived from the Greek porni(“prostitute”) and graphein (“to write”), was originally defined as any work of art or literature depicting the life of prostitutes.

It is hard to devise the history of pornography precisely to the fact that imagery that might be considered erotic or even religious in one society may be condemned as pornographic in another.

some people call it ‘religious iconography’ others might call ‘depictions of torture’. We will all perceive it in a different manner, thus its controversy.

Depictions of human sex go back to the Paleolithic era—the early Stone Age. Many of the oldest artistic renderings on earth are sexual.

Porn use has been correlated with the abrasion of the prefrontal cortex, which is the part of the brain that holds functions like morality, willpower and impulse control. Consistent porn use can be linked towards feeling depressed, lack of motivation, difficulty concentrating, feeling insecure about your body, and has given men and women a false perception of sex, love and actually causes men and especially women to be objectified. The more you watch porn, the more likely you might start to feel the need to watch something more hardcore, to be able to orgasm from, causing you to be desensitized to normal and healthy sex. A lot of the most popular porn videos are often very violent and objectifying. We also notice weird fetishes becoming more common thanks to pornography normalizing porn of step sis, step bro, daughter, forceful gang-bang etc. Pornography has also led to women having rape fantasies, giving them a false perception of how real rape would be. I have not even begun to mention the sexual exploitation, abuse and rape of young girls in the porn industry. Pornography is widely consumed heavily in society, at one point 90% of teenagers have been exposed to pornography, distorting their perceptions of intimacy with another being, and even sexualizing things like stepsisters,stepbrothers; It has been linked with an increase of strange, unhealthy kinks. A lot of vulnerable young women are swept into the industry, abused and taken advantage of in the industry. There are thousands of rape videos on popular porn sites all around the internet. The idea that the woman “asked for it” or “signed up for it” this entitlement is just another symptom of prolonged porn consumption. Here are some statistics on the negatives of porn:

Male porn stars inject drugs into their penis to stay erect
Women in porn are treated badly and are often abused
66% of porn stars have herpes, 7% have HIV and only 17% use condoms
56% of divorces in the US alone are caused by an obsessive interest in porn
76% of 18-24 year old’s consumed porn regularly in 2016
71% of teenagers hide this behavior from their parents.
Estimates of 4.5 million people are forced into sexual exploitation globally
Sex trafficking generates $99 billion annually
63% of underage sexual trafficking victims said they were sold online
A 15 year old girl was found in 58 videos on pornhub

Over 40 million Americans are regular visitors to porn sites. The average visit lasts 6 minutes and 29 seconds
There are around 42 million porn websites, which totals around 370 million pages of porn.
The porn industry’s annual revenue is more than the NFL, NBA, and MLB combined. It is also more than the combined revenues of ABC, CBS, and NBC.
47% of families in the United States reported that pornography is a problem in their home.
Pornography use increases the marital infidelity rate by more than 300%.
Eleven is the average age that a child is first exposed to porn, and 94% of children will see porn by the age of 14
70% of Christian youth pastors report that they have had at least one teen come to them for help in dealing with pornography in the past 12 months
Porn rewires the brain
Porn is an addiction that can be compared to a heroin addiction
Porn teaches degeneracy
Porn can alter a consumers sexual tastes
Porn stars are often lied to about there contract and virtually raped.
A lot of porn videos consist of sex traffickers.
Porn affects ones sexual and love life
Porn destroys marriage
Porn can fuel anxiety, depression, and leave consumers lonelier than before.
Porn increases sexual aggressiveness
Porn is degrading

In conclusion pornography is a weapon, to destroy love, to mislead the masses about sex, giving them false perceptions, and insecurities which can have disastrous causes in there love life and to there cognitive health as well.

SENSES OVERLOAD

Being in an adult environment, wondering what could happen and what friends I could possibly make, but what I realised was a valuable lesson on the general population, or neurotypicals in general. One person leaves the class and everyone begins to chat about the person who just left, throwing a few rude remarks, when they enter the classroom all goes back to normal and behaves as if they didn’t just say rude things about this person. On my lunch breaks, I decide to try to be social and sit around a few people. From their perspective I’m just boring and quiet, from my perspective I am being haunted by the fact their conversations have to be about bringing others down or pointing out irrelevant information about others. I thought after school maybe adults would be somewhat different, but they are worse. I try my best to at least attempt to get in on it, but I just don’t understand what is happening. I can’t socialise and make friends with people who make me feel haunted and sad. People love to be negative and sly constantly,, and it scares me away and drives me back into isolation. Maybe it’s not them, maybe it’s just me? I am living in a world with a foreign language. It’s a very alienating experience trying to socialise with others, and it’s been like that since I was a kid, but being an adult, everything is my responsibility, and my awareness is getting to that point where I realise that I have no idea of my senses around me. I can present as normal, behaving as in an agreeable manner, but inside I’m afraid of the people around me, that I can’t understand them. I walk around very loud cars, repugnant architecture and feel alone and overloaded from the environment around me. I feel better on my own, but I don’t want to be alone. Every day, I just can’t wait to get back home, drained from my surroundings to be away and alone from everything, play some games to dissociate, I pretend everything is okay, and that I belong, close my eyes and wait until the next day of suffering begins. I have no sense of belonging anywhere, and I’m searching for it.

PLANE SAFETY

In 2007 A group of engineers analyzed all aircraft crashes after 1971 and found that those seated at the rear seats had a 69% survival rate, while the middle seats had 56% survival rate. Those at the front seats had a 49% survival rate. Another study showed that sitting in the aisle seat and sitting within 6 rows near an exit is safest.

The brace position is important. Planting your feet square on the ground helps stop your legs from smashing the seat in front and breaking so you can leave the aircraft. Placing your forearms and head against the seat in front of you stop your body from flying forward into the other seat. The idea that the brace position serves to hurt you rather than protect is a MYTH.

Clothes also can help increase your survival chances of a plane crash, Wearing enclosed shoes and long clothes can protect you from objects like nails or flames going into your skin. Wearing a waterproof watch can be beneficial when crashing in water, you will be able to keep track of time when waiting to be rescued. Do not inflate your life jacket until you exit the aircraft otherwise you will get trapped and drown.

THE INTERNET AND APATHY

I think one of the biggest problems surrounding human apathy lies around the fact we live in such a large scale society beyond what we are hardwired for, we lack communities now and so it’s easy to just be cruel to someone you will never see again or the fact you won’t suffer great consequences. When we lived in small communities everything was heard around and if you were treating people wrongly you would be confronted about it and risk a lot more consequences. As well as the internet dehumanising people, we are just so desensitised to a lot more things and are constantly hearing negative things happen to people where it doesn’t effect us anymore. The whole politicising of everything as time progresses is only dividing people more and stripping away their individualism. Creating a lot more apathy. Removing the internet from ones life and trying to stick to a local community would benefit a lot of people who feel that humans are overwhelmingly cruel. I think social media is a place that’s been abused to where it really strips people of their innocence, individuality and compassionate capabilities, because the internet is such a large part of peoples lives in this era, this is starting to slowly impact the way people are in real life, making people slowly more detached, introverted and selfish. Living today is more so a fight on your mental and not so much for your physical as it was in previous eras. Our minds are being pushed into an alienated way of life that we aren’t hardwired for, and adaptability will only go so far before humanity becomes very sick, which in my opinion I already see it as very much sick and dying, not psychically, but mentally. I think it is very much worse. I don’t think any society documented to man has suffered this much mental sickness and been so far away from mental clarity. Social media was originally said to meant to be a place for individual expression and uniting us together, but it’s actually turned out to do the exact opposite on a deeper level. Yes you can have individual expression and you can reach more people, but this has been abused and turned into a very toxic place where a lot of things are one sided, and individual expression has turned into stripping away the youths individualism, setting unhealthy and unrealistic standards that impact life outside of the internet, as I said because the internet is apart of everyone’s life now, these unhealthy standards are forced into the real world. The positive side of all of this is becoming aware of this, once you’re aware of it all you can start to cut out all of these toxic things from your internet life and only surround yourself with an healthy online environment, and connect with like-minded individuals. You can’t force young people off the internet and expect that it will solve everything. The sad truth is they will have to develop this awareness on their own as they age. Restricting the internet from young people is only going to make them find a way to seek it out in a much more unhealthy way. The internet has become too much invested into society to where you can’t just take it away. There’s no reversing this.

FIAT G.56 ‘CENTAURO’

The G.56 Prototype was flown in March,1944, under German authority. A G.55/I air frame was fitted with the improved DB 603A engine, This engine was the only major change from G.55/I specification, yet it increased the length by 4 3/4 in, the weight by 199KG, and the maximum speed by 64 K.P.H. Retaining the excellent manoeuvrability that characterised almost all Italian fighter designs, the G.56 possessed sufficient speed and firepower (armament being that of the G.55/I) to match any Allied or German fighter on even terms, actually proving itself superior to the BF109G and the FW190A in comparative tests. This aircraft would have absolutely dominated the skies if it went in full production. I still believe the G.55 was the best fighter of WW2, it was simply just too late in the war for it to get recognition and full production.